A few friends told me about how unhappy they were to see me move on too fast into another r/s but i told myself wasnt it right to love another if there was someone out there who love me so much . and also things like replacement? was i really using her as a replacement? or was it really love that brought us together? i just dun know much now

but it just struck my mind that what has been happening this few days it was just a childish act... i was told that it looked as if i was to try to prove that i could live better now that i found someone and also trying to make summer regret that decision of breaking up with me .And also getting back at her making her feel worse that i was happy with my new girl friend christina

I felt so much worst now , like i am no different from those guys who just breaks people's heart and going away once i am contented. I m just a bastard , a heartless guy who doesnt deserved to be loved I dun wish for Christina to forgive me as i have hurt her deeply by wishing to end this r/s cause i feel that i m so "fake" in those words i said to her."I love u"

In our first month , i felt that she was the one i had been looking for i was overjoyed , i really wanted her to be with me for the rest of my life but then over time i had like memories of summer like almost everyday starting from last two weeks ago. I told myself to move on and also to be truthful to Christina. but as times goes by , my flashbacks were more and more frequent and also i felt that i was too used to being with summer. Everytime on the road i would also felt a sign of resentment which led me to regret now being friends with summer.

Some part of me just wants to know her well being , its like sometimes i would just check my fb just to see whether she would reply me . but all would be for nothing as i think she really hates me by not even replying any of the msg sented to her. Maybe its just over between her and me but why , why would i still long for her to come back to me. I m just confused right now .