Today had a very weird dream... Pictured tat i was in a very crazy world tat tis girl was doing lots of things 4 me was singing songs to me and also lots of small kids were surrounding her carrying small flowers and all just to cheer me up... lols when i woke up it was just a dream.. school was normal today was playing psp the whole day until it died will update more later... 10/01/08 Just came home today.. lols ... first went over to cass's house met wif David , Paxton , Andy , Joey and Cass then later headed down to geylang but b4 tat ...went to meet someone first b4 going to meet them again at geylang.. Meet her at parkway shopping center then later after tat went to meet them at the beef kuay tiao shop.. reach there le waited for them awhile then later headed down to small street.. dunno wads wif the name but then it was David tat told me about the name... wonder why they call it small street to me the road looks big to me around 4 lanes? after at settle down to eat tao huai then later ordered some you tiao.. ate le then went seletar dam... aka yishun dam... slacked at there and chatted Me , Cass and Andy were talking about relationships like advantages and disadvantages told cass about the effects of having long relationships after tat i kinda regret somethings i done during the past but then if i dun let go tis past how would i be able to grip on the present? Everyone makes mistakes no one is perfect no one is totally useless A person hu repents and learn from their mistakes are those who are worthy of being forgiven.. tat was wad they were trying to tell me... although they weren't direct... soon after someone complained hungry so we went to jalan kayu roti prata store... lols wonder wads so special yet they wrote FIRST STORE USING OLIVE OIL TO MAKE PRATA... lols i see tat then i was like prata must be expensive so i ordered two plain ones ... guess how much? $1? $0.80? or $0.50 it was 80 cents 4 each plain lor i was like wow? so ex ar or maybe tats the usual thought it was 60? flour only lehs. well wadever the case is Already order le just eat lor then eat le after tat went home andy sat my bike then later regroup at cass house then later went home.. My heart feels the pain when i see her smile.... Its like its being stretched then slashed into bits of pieces will i be able to overcome tis ordeal? Yet i feel happy in a way tat is... she found happiness in someone tat couldnt be found in me? just glad she is able to smile the way i first met her.. Its all my doing tat lead everything to this.. If there is a blame to be taken i just take everything to myself... No matter how many years it takes to suffer My life is in complete darkness once again never able to face the world wif happy thoughts and dreams I just wonder is tat dream a sign or just something i would never get in my entire life To love someone doesnt mean u need to be wif tat someone But just standing by the side of tat person and cheering tat someone to his or her very best Encouraging tat someone wif yur best support in wad he or she do... Being able to see he or she smile wif hearts content would be yur sufficient reward... Tis is wad i thought so but then sadly i m unable to comprehend tat whole paragraph Will i be able to stand on my own ever again?