Haiz day 2 and thing are getting worst Betrayed her trust over and over again looks like a new war is just starting 2 am in the morning Claire msg me saying Alice and Jean were having a cold war to my surprise i was wondering wad she meant by that but i was too tired to find out after tat Jean msg me saying that she would like to meet Camilla and Alice and after tat a msg saying why? slping already ar? or scared till frantically thinkin of a solution? u know i dun like people to say anything about my sis so I'm really interested to meet that cammie girl asap :) guess i really dun keep my words betraying her trust time to time i m really a goner am i really that despicable? when i read Alice's , Camilla's and Jean's blog i finally understand wad kinda person i was i didnt like tis at all didnt want tis to happen but somehow my words dun link wif wad i do Vanessa said i was becoming a different person not the guy i used to be cheerful and always smiling is that true? I guess thats also part of the reason i m just too depressed to know wads right and wrong Jean really affected my life alot Its really time 4 me to be who i used to be Is that possible? I hate my current self its like i m unable to do anything y do i still have feelings 4 her after wad she has done to me was it my fault all along? but she doesnt need to use mean words like rushing into a relationship wif some random guy its just too hurtful should i really mean wad i say when i disappear frm tis world i guess i should cause the way i see things i m always bringing to her trouble god yur judgment to me is cruel but then i'll accept and move on