Today went to sch late reach at 9 am lols so late .. did some assignments then later on break le went to eat wif marc then later waited 4 camilla then went to my house slacked around ... used the com then later went out to tampines mall to look out some wallets cause she said to me lets get u a new wallet i was like wow? i mean i didnt ask much i was like touched lols after tat went to wallet shop see see abit she said the designs arent nice so we went to century square ate beef noodle.. then after tat drove to orchard went to far east along the way she said she was thirsty then later we brought avocado milkshake well it tasted like avocado? taste quite thick dunno the taste to me very unusual but then overall its nice lols then later go around the most wallets we found were at 77th steet lols... then later i pointed to a blue and black wallet and said it was nice then later she answered cause its blue? i was like zzzzz how come she know wad i thinking lols speachless 4 awhile then later say eh rite rite ... after tat we went walking around then cannot find anything went to heeren and went to fossil i was like no way its freaking expensive then she was like ok wad was wrong i was like wow so ex and she doesnt really care? weird ... i just wonder wads expensive to her after tat i didnt really want her to spend tat much on a wallet 4 me so i said eh i dun like any lols ... excuess? but then really la a wallet to me is just can carry my cards and cash gd enuf le .... i m very easy satisfied which is y i always get cheated some how? anyways after tat went back to tampines mall got the wallet thanked her i mean actually i was like thought she was joking but then it went up 4 real really touched sent her back after tat as soon as i got her bag frm my house after tat met wif ww was going to meet pax de but then end up meeting claire cause i didnt wan to go so far to watch movie plus i m already short of cash i didnt enter the kinokuya job sads haiz really wad lor anyways after tat went serangoon gardens to eat dinner had mee goreng and mutton soup well the soup was best la lols after tat went to meet claire slacked at mac then claire went order ffood and then later me and ww irritated her by commentating her every move lols like drinking la eating fries and burger lols ... had alot of fun after tat brought bubble tea and then later slacked around there after tat drove to ww house drop him there then headed home Last day to think le Glad that i enjoying every single moment i have now somehow i wished that i could stay tis happy even if its momentarally its still life cause life is full of ups and downs its like a sequence first there is ups then later downs then come up next.... I could see tat she is also having ups and downs Ever since i left her life she became a person who have more friends being happier wifout me well i m just glad tat happened to her just glad somehow she changed into someone stronger then last time Good 4 her Alice has also shown her improvement in life Has begun socializing met up wif new ppl finding a job enjoying her life both of them have blessed life unlike me but then i also pray 4 them to study hard to get the things they want like 4 Jean an increasing gpa of more then 3 and Alice getting to her desired designing course i m just happy i met them didnt regret knowing them and all after so much i been through i just knew tat it was all part of growing up being childish and all was also part of it its unavoidable somehow both of them changed my life and changed me into a better person along wif my friends they guided me to the correct path 4 those who i really upset people like Rowena and Jean i didnt mean those things that i have done and said to hurt u i was childish ... impulsive and brainless some how i just wish we could somehow reverse everything but then its impossible i know yur hatred wun subside in an instant but then i finally understand the trouble that u both went.... to accept the way i am .. but the words i said always makes you two feel uneasy.... some how i know tis apology wun work but then i will just keep trying to prove... tat tis time i m not going back on my words nt asking u to trust me but then just dun stop me frm trying thats all i wish u both the best of days in yur lifes wifout me To Alice.... I can never forget the time we been 2gether 8 mths seems like 8 years the times i been wif u were enjoyable and happy especially on yur celebration of yur bday just planning 4 u makes me hot on my toes glad tat we are still contacting each other after tat unfaithful day thx 4 being my friend To Jean I never regret being yur friend those times i was wif u none of those words were fake even our relationship ever since tat day when u agreed to be wif me i treated u wif lots of love just like how i would treat my one and only i didnt thought our relationship was fake even thought we did say to each other it was a fake stead thing but tat time when i was on the bus the time when i said i just wanted u was all true saying things like those already make me think tat my feelings 4 u are just true.. every single thing we do were just unforgettable just walking down those places we been just brings memories flooding back 4 example just sitting on the bus just lets me think of how often we take the bus and how much time we spent on the bus All i m trying to say is Those feelings through out those 1 month plus werent faked at all it was all true Tats all i have to say believing it is already a very hard thing 4 u to do but then 4 now its just 4 reading pleasure somehow u will understand how i feel As for now just want to be yur friend thats all... will be waiting 4 yur reply ... My decision 4 now is being single .. stepping into a relationship will be like deciding path tat i will walked so now i m just stucked at a cross junction wif lots of traffic lights just waiting 4 tat path to have tat green light to light up but now everythings seems red i just have to wait till tat very day when it becomes green just like how i wait at every traffic junction patience and calmness lols... signing off ....... glad that i m back to the cheerful path...