Woke up from 12 hours sleep glad no one bombarded my phone ytd too tired watched Bokura Ga Ita then later went to sleep i finally realized the things i needed to do to carry on in life Things like being single 4 now Things like Letting the feeling fade Between Jean and me Should stop loving her and all must si le zhe tiao xing cause she wun like me back anymore Making my mind stressed abt that point isnt going to make her come back to me From now on its better to just be friends wif her I believe that i shouldnt be so childish as in to believe she will come back to me or she will give in and be wif me once more these thinking must stop no matter wad Fact is after must thinking ytd while i was sleeping The thoughts somehow rearranged to how i m suppose to carry on wif life This is my final sorting out Never again i will think of things that wun be coming true Things like she will come back to me having her in my arms again thinking of her as well Its time to grow up rome.. Tis is my confession I still love her Still want her back But the fact is she doesnt need me anymore Its time 4 me to leave her alone now... But all tis is going to stop 4 the sake of myself 4 the good and the better now my hearts only lingers to find the one who truely loved me the one who can repair my broken heart the one who can provide me wif love Well i did loved Jean but then its all in the past I decided to put all those memories in a box Never to touch them ever again Never to even think of it again As friends we are Still talking but not as close as we were... I also loved Alice But then we are friends still close and all Just like Jean and Zean but then our feelings in our relationship are all down to friendship? maybe even more as a close friend Well i do wish her all the best 4 her O lvls as O levels arent easy 4 them tis year i took mine so i know how hard it was Well i pray 4 Alice as well as for Jean may their lives be better then mine I deserve tis punishment for not being able to cherish them now they have left me its all my fault but then to atone i just be their friend to be there whenever they need me as 4 Jean i dun think she needs me She has cake and zean and mizu and others as 4 Alice she has baby shan and QQ and many others As 4 me i have my friends for now maybe they dun need me but i am always there 4 them to think of it.. actually my life doesnt really sux at all its just how i see it I always look at the negative side of things like wad Jean tells me I m just too childish somehow i must open up more seeing the good things in life never to do things my way Never going to live the way i want Its time 4 a change Starting from today onwards Listening to ppls needs in life Hoping to solve their problems and all So far euodia need a bit of help in her life like adjusting to the better side of life As 4 Dawn like Angela said she being drawn to the side where she needs love more then future she dropped from express to N/A Just because of relationship I seriously hope she would wake up from that dream of hers but then i m unable to help cause i lost contact wif her maybe a prayer for her works? I just end everything here thats all i have in my mind clearing up my thoughts Its just simple me from now on When i see Jean i just say Hi When i meet up wif alice i just be my normal self like how we used to be when we first met life will never be the same again if i do things my way for now its single time until then if i find love once more